The person i met in Heaven

I stood there, motionless. Shock had taken everyplace my remains equal a disease. I started shaking my body going into panic mode. I collapsed, tears streaming down my face. I couldnt move. I save sat, looking, staring. I screamed, and then I was in total darkness.This was the last warehousing going through my head beforeI opened my eyes. As I sat up to see where I was, I matte a cool breeze against my cheeks. I saw that I was falsehood in the middle of a massive field with trees surrounding it. I knew where I was straight away. I had been thinking to the highest degree this place for 30 years. I looked round, this place was the same, still, it fair(a) had a softer atmosphere then I remembered. The switch seemed to glow. Almost same a dream. Except, this wasnt a dream, this was real. I got up to look around, and then suddenly I heard a voice.Well, well, well. You do it then? the voice laughed. Never couldve imagined thatI spun around. Katy? I stood there, staring at h er. I had dreamed of this moment since I was a teenager. I had be after every word, every movement, but now, no words ran through my head. simply emotions and memories.Are you alright? Looks comparable youve seen a ghost, she chuckled. God, I crack myself upAm I dreaming?Nope, youre in Heaven To be honest, Im surprise you made itThe atmosphere cooled, and it mat handle old times again.What do you mean? I was more angelic than youWe both laughed, then, silence. It suddenly matt-up awkward.Im so sorry Katy. I never realised you were so turn over with your life. I hated myself I cherished to see you, to talk to you. I IMy words came out so quickly, rushing out of my mouth. The sky darkened from a sunny blue to a deadly black, and pictures of the bypast seemed to appear all around us.Lauren, shut it What are you? Forty-Five? And youre relieve going on rough that? It wasnt your fault, okay? Stop blaming yourself. Ive been watching over you for thirty years and there are so man y things you couldve done. You dark down so many opportunities to meet new people and she paused, you barely had no confidence in yourself. And thats because of me.She looked as defenceless as she did when her parents died in that car crash when she was fourteen. Being in care had messed her up a bit, and I knew that she had been on anti depressants for a while. But wouldnt anyone be like her in her situation? I had never expected her to kill herself.I sat down next to her, then, finally breaking the silence, I spoke. wherefore?The word shot through the air like a dart. I looked at Katy.I dwell you were upset about your parents butI stopped to think about what I was saying. Scared of what her reaction mogul be if I state the wrong thing.You seemed to be managing fine I said.I dont know. I on the dot I felt like I could manage. I stopped taking my tablets, and then everything seemed to go downhill. I model about what happened quite a lot. I blamed myself for everything. I knew I shouldntve, but I did. I got more and more depressed, taking everything so seriously. Like, that time when Louise Painsley called me a useless whore, just because I messed up in our music performance?I nodded, not quite sure of what to say, but before I had time to think, she continued.Well, everything just used to hit me like a punch in the stomach. Every little thing. It sounds stupid, but it just built up. I couldnt manage anymore, I just wanted to go. To be with my family. And away from everything. She looked at me. Im sorry that I didnt speak to you. I just didnt want to bother you with all my worries. I just knew what I wanted to do, so I did it. But deep down you knew that, so wherefore did you mess up your life over it? I just dont buy the farm it Loz. You were my best mate. Why would it have been your fault?I thought about my answer, but to be honest, I had no idea. Finally, I just said everything that I felt.All these years I had just thought about you, and the fact t hat I was having fun when you were gone. It just didnt feel right. I enjoin thats okay for the first few months right? But I know I shouldntve dragged it out. I just didnt feel right. I felt like I was betraying you in some way.We looked at each other in a knowing way. In a way that meant not to load down on with the conversation. That it was finished and didnt need to be mentioned again.I sighed with relief. It felt like a massive weight had been lifted from my chest. I grabbed Katys hand and we walked around the place that I had been thinking about for thirty years. The place where me and Katy spent most our time. A massive field with trees surrounding it. I felt a cool breeze against my cheeks. I felt at stillness with myself. This was my heaven, and nobody could ever take it away from me again.